daily dose of epiphany.

2009-08-30T00:16:00.002+08:00

omma saranghae:)

updating somehow doesnt seem the norm for me to update.its like im updating for everyone except me?where s my genuine feelings hiding,why are they even hiding then?its like its been hard to express and write as carefree as before.
they say the biggest enemy you have is yourself.
how true.
there are so many thing i'd like to achieve,alot more to accomplish.to be able to sense the joy and pride in mamas voice when talkng about me.how the heart writhers in pain not realizing all these.theres no arguing who,s fault it lies in.because it lies in nobody,nobody but me.

i can pray to HIM gazimillion times but praying is a complimentary gesture when the main part comes in the effort.

Dear god,pleaaaase make miracles happen for me in these 3 weeks and make this ramdhan a fruitful one for me..

2009-04-08T01:13:00.002+08:00

i can make it through the rain(?)

Staying up for incomplete geog and messy,messy worksheets of different subjects;its been eons.Believing of securing is hard to believe,(harder than saying those three precious words,harder than trying not to think of you) when only imagery radio pops up the second his yap widens.its been 4 months.4 months of mockery,pretentious nodding and wasted time.how much longer?

Reality checks are besides the point though.

Backtracking,going through all the records and through the rain comes to mind.& i think of you,the song we sing with different meanings to it but still the same song.though being apart,i wonder do you think of me?of us as a whole?No matter how apart we,ve become,we stayed tgt till the end and ill do anything to relive those memories but its not possible.tho i wouldnt want to go through another round emotional detachment that im not strong enough to face.So dear god,please keep them dear and very close to me.Keep them away from harm and safe wherever they might be.

''cast your fears aside

and you know you can survive''

i know i did,in gp*beams*

& in 2nd round of blood donation*beams wider*

& it was because of you.

tooth fairy,save me.

2009-03-31T21:25:00.003+08:00

lump in her throat,

fingers by the end of her skirt;

fiddling,twining imaginary loose ends.

anxiously waiting,

no thanks to the unwelcoming sounds that greets;

every tick of the clock in perfect tune with every heartbeat.

how very much coincidence.

too much, at times.

one step,and(hopefully) theres no turning back.

months,yes months of procrastinations

leads to irritance and a cavity.

re-enactment?last october.

2009-03-16T09:58:00.004+08:00

WOOOOHH!
im still at the state of gushingmushingwushing!
The plot,the cute actors,the soundtrack waaaaah*gushgushgush*.
& to think we almost didnt watch it.

-i got the timing wrong.
-syidah and shirin got the venue wrong.
-syidah almost couldnt make it.
-syidah didnt get a seat next to us.
-shirins bag was a coke oasis with many treasures,soaked and very much damaged.

Oh oh and one scene almost got my fried chicken flying off to shirin.
sorry hor.
note to self;only popcorns,no more fried chicken.

Its been a while since we had a large number of people catching a movie though syidah,kau ngan aku jer dah mcm 5 orang,terpekik terlolong.Shirin was just getting deeper into the seat,trying hard to not look as though she know us.despite all,I LOVED TODAAAY;)

School with added shitty results with added tak perlu drama has been effort to survive though with hairil,ain,nazreen and lila around,term one is oveeer man.I would have been more ecstatic if results were ecstatic-deserving but its not.
ill just have to try harder.like harder hardeeer.

& its hard to say goodbye.
maybe it would be easier with stickychewychoco?

you are the reason i breathe,

you are the reason i still believe.

-jaiho

2009-03-12T01:13:00.002+08:00

the much anticipated movie!

tomorrow shall test the supernatural strength of 3(or 2)superdudettes with the power to sit still for 2 very long hours(we know its erm kinda hard for me),the power to be patience of watching a non speaking (nor reading) language of hindi movie FIRST TIME ,the power of non-batting of the eyelid( otherwise we will miss the subtitles) and the power to control le-blad'derre.
*kening naik2*

yes,even watching a movie is an uphill,paranoid chore.
but i have come prepared,watch me.

2009-03-11T19:17:00.002+08:00

& how time flies.
whether you realise or not,its already MARCH.

another step closer(imagines guides marching,slowmo)
to jengjengjeeeeeng ALEVELS!

sungguh ambitious aku.
math CT belum pon pass lagi.
booo.

im having this low-to-the-bottomless-pit kinda feeling?
it sucks big time having to keep thinking about it.
As much as i want to be reminded,whats repeated reminders without actions?
I wouldnt want to re-enact the worst period of my life(read;3 years back)
but at this progress,im almost there.Almost.

I have the bestest parents ever and i've yet to make my life seems worthwhile.

Sabda Rasulullah SAW :Maksudnya : “Keredhaan Allah itu berada dalam keredhaan kedua ibu bapa, dan kemurkaan Allah itu berada dalam kemurkaan kedua ibu bapa”. [Riwayat At-Tabrani]

Salam Menyambut Rabiuawwal.
Bulan mulia kelahiran Nabi,
InsyaALLAH kita jumpa on Sunday,Singapore Expo 830am.
;)

2009-02-27T17:52:00.003+08:00

grab a dice,set it rolling.
let the blame game begin.

& no,im not pointing any fingers.

arabee.

2009-02-24T13:37:00.004+08:00

Trudging under the scorching hot sun.Not a single gust of wind flew by.There's only one scene that greets her,vast empty spaces,never ending,all filled with fine sand making magical sound when stepped upon.Few steps away,a shadow appeared.Then,their eyes met,eyes gleaming.He waited,for any movement any sound coming from her.She opened her mouth to speak,the words coming out fast in perfect melody.Only,he didnt understand one bit.

Ahhh imagination.

2009-02-15T23:37:00.002+08:00

I find myself with little time left to sleep nowadays.
& too much time to do lots of necessary hw deemed as unnecessary.
Thats how unbalanced my days are.
k fine,more like lack of time management.

Friday
Joined Rai and Lila where we tawaf-ed the cwp through Pastamania until we finally decided on Swensen.Served by someone familiar Lila deemed as bouncer.Didnt know bouncer works part-time as waiter eh lila?Found a new secret hiding place amidst the crowded shopping ctr.I swear we behaved less than half our ages!Lets discuss politics(+ gossips & hal ehwal orang lain) another time soon k?;)

& Vday/total defence cum hairils smangat peps day!
Mama and ayah was sindiring cum hinting for any gifts i might be giving this year.No giveaways though except to siva.More of an exchange of gifts than celebrating vday.& siva,no i wnt get married to ___ & have 25 babies.Recession know-_-.Lovely surprises by friends and dinner with rai and lila concluded the whole week.

This entry is not as detailed as ive envisioned it to be
because half-heartedly my heart and (lazy typing) are with lj.
Yes,you read me,livejournal.
After gazimillion days after everyone has jump ship,
i might just follow through.

So i can say sayonara to the cock up super lagg system of uploading photos &
the mini size pictures as compared to lj's.
Then uploading super big size photos would be much enjoyable.
Yes,including large nostrils of _____.
;)

keluar!rumah!

2009-01-31T18:20:00.002+08:00

Calling all babes!
February 14 in celebration of cik shahs wan kembangs birthday(not valentines day eh pls),
please make your way down for a bowling session!
Yeah ladies,lets show our *coughs non-existent* bowling skills!
Yang tetibe ader boyfriends,ader teman tapi terlebih mesra tu,
be prepared to be interoggated eh.
kan sharing into caring.
More details,check hp masing2.
;)

ps/.orang lain yg birthday,org lain pulak semangat gilaaa..

2009-01-26T21:32:00.004+08:00

cny.big shit.

mentang-mentang 78%(i googled) cineeeeer,
parkway suddenly become a ghost town,
fireworks tanak kalah,
late night service sampai pukul 2 pagi(kalah pulak national day),
tapi paling important nye,
East coast jadi kampung melayu pulak.

Not really kampung unless you count in makcik2 (pakai leggings you!) bringg their dapur all.
Last year they reported a mini kitchen in BH,
so this year i kept a special look out for it.
Alas,they brought only a stove,hampa dehh!
Yes,cooking instant roti telur or smethg like that.

With gazimillions of people thronging ecp beaches
until nenek said ''nenek tk boleh nampak pon pantai dier,dian''
-_-

& beaches are the only place u can never under-dress,(the skimpier the better,no?) but possible to over-dress.
It was quite a sight really,from beach-goers wearing blazerslah,vestlah
and idk if its recession but a chinese family of red in mc donalds?

My bike had to have a flat tyre so adiks mountain bike was the only choice.
either (too-tinggi-for-my-stubby-legs- to- reach) mountain bike or walk.
err first choice please?
Hanya Tuhan saje tahu betapa sakitnya my___.okaaay,tmi.

& please,if you still wanna enjoy of whats left,
dont go against the traffic.like how we use our right hand to eat,left hand to cebok(well,most of us),its likewise.
dont sit under a none-sheltered shelter.you might just have a unique but fugly,'suntan'.
dont let go of your children/dog/pets anything beloved.A dad was crying when his calm,cool and composed little son was found.
dont forget your orders.Queing takes twice as long to eat the ice-cream .

OH lastly,DO keep a look out for hot ~~to the max!~~ guys!

Though at least the cousins was there to make it enjoyable.
Next outing,syidah?;)

Lastly,to the neighbour (who gave me 6 bucks hangbao),and KYLE!! and ming,
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.

2009-01-18T22:47:00.003+08:00

Time waits for no man.

what more me.

2 months to

2 days to

2 hours.

its not even done yet.

the culprit?procrastination and extended hour(s)

of naps.

dang.

2009-01-17T00:43:00.002+08:00

Emotions let loose,and the tears too.For a while,the tears never stop flowing.i feel empty inside.No love to share,no time spent together.You we'rent there when i needed you.
Nothing could make me feel better right now.Not empty promises,not false hopes.
'cos in the end,its going to hurt anyway.

2009-01-11T21:50:00.003+08:00

A key,stash away in a complicated maze.
Hiding from you;not getting any sunlight.
I wish the key was at its right place,
unlocking the secrets within my heart.
-maryanne

I wish,too.

2009-01-10T01:51:00.002+08:00

FRIDAY!

No significant day,cept that human alarm clock ticked at 11.
So since its friday,its just 2 measly days for some unpacking(of school bags and files) and repacking for MONDAY!!
Foresee,eyes half close,half open(depending how you see it),with heavy heads hanging by the neck like lifeless chicken.
Great.

Thats alot to be getting use to,trains,buses by 8,no more sleep after subuh,no more bathing at 1(at least i do bathe okay,cinoneks!) and the list goes on...
What to do,unless i carved out my future to marry a rich,non-Datuk,faithful,eligible bujang,also know as non-existent man,then i have to drag my sorry ass to school.

Bandings,another added whippedcream on the pistacchio ice-cream(both are gross).I feel like a cow now.Like banded according to ability; to give birth to (insert name of cows smaller earthlings),give melamine-free milk,grade A cow,grade B cow etc etc.
& im at the bottom.

''Here is where the Grade A cows are''
''Mooo...''

Sorry ar, banding students are the 'in' thing right now.
Might as well they dis-band the class.
Same combi,different class,different group of people.
No chance of a set of real close friends that way.
Bottomline,school suck.

Still,im thankful to be alive complaining.
Ya Allah,Lindungilah hamba-hambamu di Palestin.
Makbulkanlah doa kami ini.Amin.

& Happy Birthday Adik!
You idiotic cow.

& Turkish ice-cream makes a good subsitute for bananas.
they make you pooo~
;)

epic.

2009-01-08T01:18:00.002+08:00

Diyanah and The Cicak.

Scene 1(theres only one scene), Take 5.

&%^*#@&^*!!!

2009-01-07T00:37:00.003+08:00

Hari Asyura.

“Sesiapa yang berpuasa pada hari itu, maka akan diberikan ganjaran pahala kepadanya seumpama 10,000 orang yang mengerjakan haji dan umrah, dan 10,000 orang mati syahid.

“Sesiapa yang mengusap kepala anak yatim pada hari as-Syura, maka Allah akan mengangkat darjatnya satu darjat bagi setiap helai rambut''
(the only day dpt ''belai'' rambut mama.hee)

“Ia (puasa as-Syura) menebus dosa tahun yang lalu''

Semua ini,hanya dengan puasa lillahi ta'ala.
Niat puasa sehari dapat ganjaran sebanyaknya pon tanak ke?
Sama-sama kita memperbaiki diri,walaupun sedikit demi sedikit
ke jalan yang benar.

2009-01-04T01:35:00.002+08:00

dee;hah!Think you some big shit ah?
HH;(standard reply)BIGGER THAN YOU anyway.
dee;HAHAHHAHAHAH!
you can be the biggest shit for all you want!i wont mind.

i sweaaar this is hilarious,with webcam + hp at the same time.woots!

&im holding illegal money.
two hundred bucks to be exact.

Apparently,the women withdrawed and forgotten to take her moolahs.
Being good samaritans,we waited...for a good 10 mins.
Thanks women,for ruining our day.

2009-01-02T23:50:00.005+08:00

Cravings,satisfied!

im one haaaaappy, ~~fat~~goober.

tak sia-sia memekak satu petang;)

first day.

2009-01-02T17:11:00.004+08:00

When ur household are up and about gg to school etc,
what do you do?
ans;go to school too.
even whens today is not officially my first day.

im gonna admit!
i still think im in 2008
and very much in a holiday mood.

so today,dragg my already heavy,fat linen legs to the bathroom to take a shower,
and i can barely open my eyes.
& i even brushed my teeth twice!
cos i kinda forgot i already brush it the first time.=S
uh huh ,that bad.

i opened my eyes bigger to the new semester.it was weird seeing students crowding the bustop,with new uniforms all smart&ironed out and oooh whiners,who whine when their new white school shoes accidentally got stepped on.& who could miss the numerous muslim guys missing their friday prayers?makin lama,makin ramai.naudzubillah.

i need to get my stickychewychoco fix.pronto!

i shall tahan until tomorow.
but with any luck,tonight.
*cross fingers ~~and toes and everything in between~~*
otherwise,must tahan.go diyanah go!

& secrets are only gg to be revealed tomorrow!
*pls make it work*

2009-01-01T23:11:00.002+08:00

schooooooooooooooooooooooool.
suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

earlier sleeping time + new doa(s).

Ya ALLAH,
kasi lah gigi saye cantik,
saye cantik,
kasilah saye bangun pukul enam besok.
Amin.
-nurulgedegakatiqah.

2009-01-01T11:58:00.004+08:00

i loove loooove the fireworks and the music accompanying the segment.
Kudos to whoever,it really made the moment a magical one.
What with the fast & furious tempo like we are anticipating yr 2009 and then it ended with a slow tune somehow bidding farewell to 2008.
it was perfect.
*sighs*

& dillusional i might be,but u sure did made me giggle to sleep.
;)

2008-12-31T22:21:00.004+08:00

COUNTDOWN!!!
right at the comfort of hooome!
no smelly crowds,no congested train/bus/transport,and great view of taufik all the same!
get me Taufik's new album pleaase somebody!

That reminds me,i have this teeny weeny resolution that doesnt have to be only for the new yr,it applies all year round.
which is;LESS PARANOIA PLS.

Bet it'll be good for the health,less drama etc etc.
& less assumptions made.
oh how i hate myself for always jumping to conclusions,making assumptions.
*sighs*

& i just wish i could tell you how i really feel.

2008-12-31T01:12:00.003+08:00

today;pizza hut for lunch then desserts at swensens.

ambience?check.
company?perfecto mundo!

Couldnt have had more laughs with the the 2 babes.
what more with the rejection(s) huh,girls?gosh.

hair fall have been increasing lately.
what with 20 strands(yes,i counted) or more in one sitting.
prolly more than 50 a day = bald soon.

i soo regret teasing nas for beijing 101.
maybe,i'd need it later.
karma man,diyanah.pffffft.

some people being such a _____.
ur actions has underlying reasons/purpose.
like ada udang sebalik maggie lidat,
& I DONT LIKE IT.
go solve ur own problems
when we dnt even see each other as friends.
TSK.

on a lighter note;
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.
dnt bother making ''resolutions'' when we all know its just smagat jubs and prolly u'd forget when february comes.
i know i do.haaaaa.

PS.THANKS athin for tha impromptu seafood dinner at msia,i wnjoyed myself can!
& yuli and shirin,thnks for todaay!=D

2008-12-29T00:23:00.005+08:00

Not many realised today marks the start of the new islamic year
also known as maal hijrah.
That got me thinking why we have countdown to the new year 2009 with fireworks and merry making and blahblahblah but we fail to even know when is the islamic new year.
Im saying this not because i want to mengata orang etc etc.

But because i realised this,today.
If not for mama and ayah,i wont even know there is sambutan maal hijrah at expo.
If not,I would have missed the opportunity to seek forgiveness ,to start the new islamic year with words and praises of Allah.

Are we that busy that we forget whats really important?
That at times we,re too busy with the materialise this world offers.
we cuai,we leka.

Yet,we,re still given the chance to repent,to ask for forgiveness.
Dengan tahun baru ini,ampunilah dosa kami,kurniakanlah kami hidayat dan berkatilah kami dalam segala perbuatan kami.Lindungilah orang2 yang kami sayangi semoga kami diletakkan diantara orang3 yang beriman.Amin.

Allah Hu - Fauzi Zukifli

2008-12-27T05:01:00.005+08:00

fear,is what gets the most of us.

fear of the dark is for one.
hence,the trip to the toilet with Shirin in tow at 4 in the morn.
yes,i even checked if she was missing any legs.

*shudders*

2008-12-26T00:36:00.003+08:00

Its very disheartening,to know you,re not there anymore.
too busy,too busy,too busy.
times have change but the 'reason ' still had'nt.

its too long,to wait,to long to hold on.
maybe,its time i let go.
what say you?

2008-12-25T13:09:00.002+08:00

Walked in 7-11 with 2 bucks in hand.Malay newspaper and 1.50 left,
& even that isnt enough for a decent chocolate.

At least its a fairer world now,
the rich getting poor,the poor getting poorer.
;Everyone gets to feel the pinch now.

Though the Mustafa trip didnt look like one.
Sorry Daddyo!

2008-12-24T15:58:00.003+08:00

Today,i learnt ,through abit of embarassment (in frnt of a pri 3 kid) that seahorse is a fish and whothf came up with that is one confuse dude.

2008-12-23T01:22:00.007+08:00

Lets shoe our love to US President in this new online game!

Just go to;http://play.sockandawe.com/

As of now,there has been 48,213,518 succesful hits.

Beware;this game is as annoying as the President himself!

2008-12-22T11:55:00.005+08:00

With heavy eyelids shut,

the mind starts to wander on its own;

i dreamt of you...

twice.

;)

2008-12-22T01:05:00.002+08:00

three words;teramat sangat kecewaaaaa.

Lions wasn't as thirsty for the finals than Vietnam.

The evident was clear;no matter how fast Lions charged,the ~~midgets~~ Vietnams charged twice as hard,as furious.

They had every ounce of energy to try and gain control of the ball to overwhelming disastifaction of fellow countrymen.puhleease la,every bit of sore losers.

&Vietnam,though bravo for that little slip past through lionel lewis,bravo too for the fake acting.

so unwanted aaah,cheap entertainment.

maybe full time footballer,part-time actors.

who knows?

every few minutes another viem goes tumbling down with leg pain la,body pain lah etc etc.

pfffffffft.

Now,Lions dreams of being in the finals are dashed,so does many Singaporeans'.

Heard of ''alaaa baru nk beli grandstand mase finals...''

'' Baru nak ajak etcetcetc next maatch!''

..all accompanied by crest-fallen faces.

& to think i wore white today.

Now,i would never get the chance to wear patriotism on my sleeves.

2008-12-21T15:38:00.002+08:00

I earned myself a chiding from daddy for short-circuiting the house.

''not my fault,''i argued.

it was the toaster's.

Heading to National Stadium later,partly to support Singapore.

Partly to basked in a smelly,sweaty hopefully kecoh atmosphere like 2 years ago.

though this time with additions to the original crowd.

and hopefully,mr umbrella ella ella too.

;)

2008-12-20T01:43:00.001+08:00

mixed reactions.

ps/.Paaaatrick!top-secret package finally mailed!
*makes excited face*

2008-12-18T22:06:00.002+08:00

Lying to me,would be better.what more,when the truth hurts.

2008-12-18T11:32:00.002+08:00

There are days where I would love to be somebody else,

Days where I am fighting myself ;

There are days where I wish I would be a child again,

And sometimes days where I wish they wouldn't last.

-luxwaslast

2008-12-16T23:11:00.005+08:00

life doesnt always go the way you want it.

At times,when its the other you're searching for,other (one) comes unexpected.

Though im not complaining 'cos its nice to know that he could trust,when we,re barely acquaintances plus hes miles miles away.aaaaah!

thanks kyle;)

2008-12-16T00:24:00.005+08:00

Stepping into the air-conditioned bus,after a day in school,painting flags,dancing,playing games,i couldnt help but notice.The bus was lingering with a strong aroma of freshly baked..kuih raya.
Maybe,it was just a dream;a short nap was possible-anywhere.or maybe,i was just hungry.

tomorrow,shall be a day spent exposing my pale skin(probably from lack of sunlight as a result of too much 'indoor activity') to generous amounts of Vitamin D.

Food?check.
Healthy sunlight?check.
Baggage of unnecessary clothes?check check .
High possibility of hot guys in action?check check check.

Best place for all these???SENTOSA.

Its been eons since i set foot in sentosa,and probably tomorrow shall be one i'd ever set foot in the coming years.=S

& i couldnt stop but take a double,no make that triple take on this makcik.
With the 'in' tudung ,made in indonesia,the sarung2 one,no pins,no fuss,no glamour.
Just all resulting in all makcik2 lookng the same.
Or my mama.haha.
Woops!sorry mother.i know you love me.
;)

2008-12-14T18:36:00.003+08:00

'pay,pay,pay!'

'i want to buy!'

'2 dollars!'

''PROTx3.EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!'' x(sara,nana,afiq)

The clock striked twelve and the game begin,clockwise.
house after house,jail after jail and mortgages after almost bankrupt,the game ended.
but Not after 5 hours of...monopoly.

Woke up at 12 then bowling at 3.

gutter,gutter,no spare,no strike.
but i did not get last.
HAHAHA.

5th place,not bad right?
but 3rd laast.

bottomline;I SUCK.
haha.ohwells.

the night before i left for hk,Hairil came right to the doorstep to give my birthday presents!
Bag full of dumbells(ermm.for.errm.toned muscles?hahaa)+personalized photo frame.;)

Yesterday,even after one month,i still got a birthday gift!
thought this time frm yuli.
She came all the way to bedok(when she's staying at woodlands) to present me with a pre-ordered cd David Archuleta!

Super shock can?
Thanks,you guys for all the effort=D

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAHSURI & SAIFUL!
Finally 17 uh you two.hehh.

thats it for now.
Take care everyone.

cheap thrills...thrilling meh?

2008-12-12T01:23:00.005+08:00

This one is quite fun to do.
Post it here in the comments section or at your own blog.
Rules:* Grab the book nearest you. Right now.
* Turn to page 57.
*Find the fifth sentence.
* Post that sentence along with these instructions in a note to your wall, and post your sentence in a comment here as well. Include the title of book and author.

Sentence;The boys did not realise that an accident could happen.
Title;Children primary 3&4 Model compositions
Author;NIL

My verdict-''quite fun'' meh?Was positively seratus persen know that its so lame.but!you wnt know till you try and err.i still dnt see the fun of it.*mutters pri 3&4?*Now you know why i didnt score in gp.Not my book laa ,serious.-_-.

2008-12-11T22:09:00.004+08:00

Fathin Hanani,i miss youuuuuu.

I have gazillion things to gossip/whine/rant about.

Please come back soon=(

Ps.athin,i just stumbled upon this pic frm god knws when at friendter!

cant believe u edited it laa.cute couple??

*kening naik2*

;)

2008-12-10T22:42:00.004+08:00

finally!
I GOT TO WATCHED WILDCHILD=D
the movie was as good as i expected.
though it was kinda weird to have malay subtitles;/
watching it with bro,with no popcorn or drinks cos apparently dad said i had moolahs.when i didnt even have 1 ringgit!thanks lah.
& it didnt help that this idiotic guy kept kicking my chair.

at first,i maintain (cey maintaain seh) my anger ah.
then i propped myself up and turned my head behind.and staared at him.
but i doubt he saw my ~~angered~~ stare cos next 5 mins he resumed his kicking business.

INGAT FUN FAIR PER??

For everytime he kick ,ill push back the chair and adik'll go''jerit je lah kat dier''
got super pissed,and turning to the right in between adik and me i said,''Excuse me?Can you please dont kick my chair?!''
and he finally...nope,he continued kicking.
Not discriminating or insulting msians,but i guess this particular mat msia didnt understand english i guess.and his girlfriend probably was too blind to see her bf be of pain in the ass.

bad experience with ugly msians aside,
shirah and i bought the first slice of cheesecake at secret recipe.
*mutters* abeh bangge ah?
yalah damn kiasu can?(nampak sah sporean) since the last time cheesecakes were all soldout.
booo.

actually,today was to be the last day of eating whatever,whenever.
BUT! theres a bbq cum bowling cum gathering of cousins frm mama side pulak!oh no!
bahs,we all knw the ''strict diet'' wnt be happening anytime soon,err,or anytime i guess?

and ~~pirated~~movie marathon starts now!
cept that wildchild cant be viewd.dang,super suay.
ohwells.

cousins,can't wait for Saturday!=D

2008-12-09T23:11:00.008+08:00

this post requires you to imagine.,

imagine this picture only with the flags turning to indonesian flags.

*imagines new picture*

For the noobs out there(i was a noob till today),this picture was taken years back when indonesia vs singapore.

don't even ask me for the score i dont knw.=S

today,since spore met indo again.

this was our main topic during dinner.

DADDY;Gimme and S!

Shahira;makes letter S with probably her neck*just imagine lah*

DADDY:Gimme and I!

Shahira ;makes with her arm out stretched

DADDY;Gimme and N!

Shahira;makes awkward body gestures and finally.''idk how to make N''.

broaching on the welcoming banner indons made for spore eons back,

daddy says he wants to make one too, should they ever have a match again.

Since the indos have'' WELCOME TO HELL''for Singapore,

the one for indos will say''WAK KANGS!SELAMAT DATANG KE ALAM KUBUR!"

expressing it LOUD AND CLEAR.

i swear we couldnt continue eating.

we as in not including me lah right.

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILA!

you,re prolly in thailand somewhere looking at thai boys.(err?).sipping on hot thai tom yum soup.hmm yumm.come back hme safely alright !

nightos people.

oh btw the score was 2-0.

noob.

;)

2008-12-09T10:19:00.004+08:00

i want a microwave in my room!

something liddat though not a house made of wood!

this just proves how much of a lazy ass i am to have a stroll 5 seconds to the kitchen and pop THE MAGICAL HOT PAK.that probably save my ~~non-existing boring~~ life yesterday.exaggerating much,but half-true!

oh crap,the real reason is not the lazyness.its more of the afraaaid.
try,going out of the room in the wee hours of the morning just to wait for MAGICAL PAK to heat for 2 mins.2mins the max what.if can ill heat it up for 10 mins so itll last me the whole night!

i might as well sleep in the kitchen this way just like shahira suggested.
but bibik wont teman me so TETT!suggestion aborted!yaya,wth diyanah.

im bored and and havent mandi.
haha.okay bye.

2008-12-08T22:17:00.002+08:00

This wednesday,im going to msia yet again for a day of movie,lunch,secret recipe,baskin robbins etc etc.Just like the one 2 weeks ago,only exception is...some friends might be joining.
Loved ones shld knw what im talkng about.so shhh;))

Though I've kinda accepted that its near to impossible.
what are the odds________?
& with different backgrounds,culture etc etc?
GAAHS.

dnt you ''diyanah,anthings possible'' me.
True,true but! i dnt see this going anywhere or happening anytime.

& Lately,the topic of death has made me think alot.
Like how,we would try to change the topic whenever the subject is touched on.
Or we just brush it aside,thinking its not time yet la.
When regardless of religion etc etc,we all will come back to HIM someday.

Dear god,im very afraid.
I've not been a very good muslim,or have i even try to change to be a better one.
Please help guide us through.Forgive our sins and make us change to be a better muslim for the days to come.& please dont take our loved ones away.

Cherish those you love,for you never know they might be gone sooner than we think.
To those who recently lost their love ones during hari raya haji,salam takziah dan semoga ALLAH mencucuri roh mereka.
Amin.
;)

2008-12-08T01:01:00.002+08:00

bonding.
with cousins on the 4th & 5th.

bonding.
on saturday,bbq,with cousins & makcik,pakcik,atuk,nenek etc etc.

that includes sunday,
where we rounding2 for 3 hours and ending up with only bubble tea.baahs.

tomorrow;BONDING again!
Raya haji,neneks place.

eh eh,asyik2 muke korng yang bacin.(x2);)

this is the first time we all get to see each other for 5 straaaight days.
what?keke keke,gossips,bitching,endless boys talk PLUS great food=I LOVE IT LAH!
though i wish the meet ups could be done each and every month.
okay darlings?

selamat hari raya aidiladha everyone.

2008-12-06T01:33:00.003+08:00

Its been sometime since we all get to go out together.My mission to fill up the whole row succeeded!All 8 of us,30 minutes late and very much like star karat.

Starting with Bolt movie(yeps,i didnt get to watch WILDCHID, again!)then false hopes at starbucks,dinner at Mcds,and the awsome evening ended with hours of heart-heart talks,top secrets,confessions and love stories with the loved ones.I couldnt have asked for more.

aku sayaaaang korang!;)

2008-12-03T16:46:00.002+08:00

FINALLY,FINALLY,FINALLY:WILD CHILD!
sense my super excitedness yo!
pls. dnt. burst. my .bubble.

what more with my best cuzzies!(whom one of them has a new oinky! bestfrnd)
here goes tomorrows plan;

12.30 pm - secret place with secret people.
05.00 pm -WILDCHILD!-with special appearance by bf of best cuzie (with new oink bestf)
till 8.30 - lepak Mc cafe
08.30 pm -selamber partaaay!

this is my definition of a very fruitful holiday;eat,sleep,movie,cousins and more kgs!

anyone keen in joining us for the movie,do text me;)

bear my unruly tongue.

2008-12-03T00:40:00.006+08:00

today,like finally,i got out of the house.
woooooh.
don't be fooled my friends, my regime of least exercise,more eat,most sleep,does not,unfortunately, end here.baahs.

today,was an exception.

Stepping out of the house with much euphoria to watch wildchild
*insert over excited face*
much to my dismay,it was the last screening for the day
and we got the choice of only first row,or nothing.
see screen or see nothing?
as if both have much differences.baahs.

Guess what did we choose?
neither.-_-
Instead we opt for...CITY OF AMBER.

read the movie title again.CITY .OF .AMBEEEEEEER.
first thing that came to mind.WTF??
yes,even now 6 hours later,fine,i change my mind...it wasnt tha....
NOPE.i still think WTF?

A movie that we both have never heard of,but since it was case darurat,we were willing to persereve.Since i know most of you wnt be watching after this baaad baad review ah.Girls,the main lead kinda cute.but i didnt pay six bucks just to look at some cutie.dang,i can do that for free!

Not sidetracking, this shows abt whats left of a civilisation being built underground.Like the dubai hotel?being built 5m under the sea?this is like the whoooole city named Ember.Hence,city of ember.yes,wtf.In short,whole city survives underwater using electricity when god thought us generator cnnt work forever so they have to find their way up to mainland.Mainland as in with sky and birds and sunlight and fresh air.yes,___So the main plot is finding a solution to rescue the whole city frm drowning and getting it all on solid ground.*altogether now*YES,_____?!

Aside from the movie,i learnt relationships need lots of maintainance.

lots of tlc?
lots of patience?
lots of ''undying love''?
dnt even get me started on the kechings2?!

happy moments arent that all happy without going through the unhappy times.
so whats a little of disagreement/misunderstanding?or in some cases alot?
Main thing is,you,ve got it thus far and time didnt just flew by w/o obstacles.
Hold on,a little bit longer and everything might just be fine.

Wise words from a woman who just went out with a girl,who looks so gay in yellow.
HAAAA.im kidding;)

Finally,Sakinah's back yo!
though with no manila dude in hand.baaah.
cant wait for...
THURSDAAAAY DARLINGS!
;)

2008-12-01T12:59:00.004+08:00

TAHNIAH!

ANDA TELAH MEMENANGI PAKEJ PERCUTIAN KE HOTEL WOODE-LEND!

BERSAMA KAMSAH-YUSOFF TRAVELS!

3-5 DECEMBER 2008!

Pakej termasuk;
Penginapan untuk 4 budak dan 2/3 kakak2 jams!
tiket ulang-alik menaiki kenderaan 4 roda!
makanan disediakan(breakfast/lunch/dinner/SUPPER!)

TUNGGU APALAGI?

sila menelefon DEE atau SYIDAH SEKARAANG JUGA!!

PS/.Pakej tertakhluk kepada semua warga under yusoffs family tree sahaja;)

2008-11-27T03:14:00.005+08:00

we all know i suffer from the incurable paranoiaaaaaaaaaaa.
yes,whats new you'd say.
but im going to add one more to the list that is ;insomniaaaaaaaa.

insomniaaaaaaaaaaa
-inability to obtain sufficient sleep,esp when cronic;difficulty in falling,staying asleep;sleeplessness.

well,the first parts true anyway.
its 3.14 in the morning and im still nt in lalaland.
and my definition of sufficient sleep is 9 solid plusplus hours.hah!beat that!

since i couldnt sleep i surprised sakinah with a farewell call at 2.30 since she's going to manila baby!i've no idea where the baby come frm but come home safely with a hot manila dude in hand kay?farhan,im just kidding heh.when i called she was in her most not sexiest voice prolly air liur basi all mixed up saying''heello?''.baah sleeping when ur flight is at 4?party pooper!

now,u're wondering whats my problem.

seee.its insomnia,i tell you,insomnia!

kim finally dne with my blabbering.
nights!

2008-11-27T00:06:00.007+08:00

after googling,rummaging through days old newspaper,
making a rash decision had never been this easy.
25 bucks is a little bit too steep,but!,
with excitement lingering ~~plus student discounts~~,
its worth it......

i hope.

I CAN'T WAIT!dewi or just anyone care to join me?
;)

2008-11-26T00:09:00.005+08:00

its been so very long since i step foot into jb.
and the total number of times ive been to city square now stands at...2.
yes,very the kental.
its like soo near yet so far.
putting aside the distances,it doesnt matter
; cos both ways i have no money to spend=S.

thats becauuuuuuuse,i have no job.
bahhhs.

blame the recession,
blame the the short period of holidays,
blame the cerewetness of employers wanting chinese speaking people.

what?if ive known any other language besides english and malay
(say ermm,french or arabee or any cool language yo!) i wouldnt even want to work for you okay.
prolly if i eveer master chinese language,i still am unprepared and unwilling to speak in chinese for the loong working hours.
cos like hairil always say''muker belacan ,jangan nak step cakap language org lain eh''
my point is,we should just stick to english.its waaaay easier.
though we all know this remains as a hope only.

hoping is just dreaming when ur awake;you know theres only a slim chance of it happening.
hopes aside, reality check diyanah,
in less than 12 hours,INTERVIEWWW!

what am i gonna say?am i gonna buldge my goldfish eyes at the questions?and stutter as if johnny depp is talking to me?
paranoiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

dang,i shall just smile and pretend i maciam understand what im spurting out frm my mouth.

just pray i wnt look half as dumb as the babu of king julien in madagascaar 2.
cute,but still,dumb.

thats all for now,
take care everyone;)

2008-11-25T00:42:00.007+08:00

another of my loved one got hitched.
after crossing out bestie,girlfriend,cousin etc etc etc,
the only one thats left is.....ME.
thou shalt not succume to pie'r pressoure.
dont u dare ask me out on double triple quadruple dates.
for i shall bring along my lesbie partner.
;)

2008-11-22T14:17:00.003+08:00

No words can really convey how i feel right now.like in one of my previous post,maybe im wanting this waay much more than the rest.bottomline;i dont want us to separate and be of only ''once close'' friends.Then whats the point of trying and trying and trying when we all know its going to happen,we're just waiting for this group of ours to be disbanded.maybe you'd all want that,but i dont.As much as i want to just scream and shout that im sick and tired of contacting and planning ,you and i know i wont give up that easily.Surely somehow we would find the time and the compromised plan and finally stick to it.Please girls,speak up to what you want.dont cancel out on the morning itself.No matter how angry or pissed at the lack of communication,i'd still love you babes the same and im still waiting for it to happen.

2008-11-20T23:48:00.003+08:00

facing with yet another hurdle is no mean feat.i just hope it gets topple over soon enough.
and i almost gave the old chang kee lady 50 hongkong cents,almost.

2008-11-20T12:33:00.018+08:00

HONGKONG EXCHANGE PROGRAMME.

10-19 NOV 2008

hostel.

mtr.

TLLF

library.

housing flats

mr oliver from england.*swoons*

tsk tsk!

very mnm.
mentel nak mampos.;)
see see seeee.

what guys do best.

baseball.

errrr?

shooting air.haha.

I sat ~~and ate egg tarts~~ this one out.

lessons.which i tersleep in one of them.

2008-11-20T12:16:00.013+08:00

Weekends,Ocean Park & Shopping.

chinese muslims.

sporeans.

he drew a hongkong version of me.thanks ah.

aquarium.

cable car ride.

MING!

shopping.day...

and night!

2008-11-20T11:34:00.019+08:00

Last 3 days.
Barbeque cum Miss J's b'dae celebration.

we had our own bbq.tom yam soup,nasi goreng,campbell soup and bbq seafood.

this crazy zoey.

ms j's emo moment.

''i want wasabi double fish fillet meal without wasabi!''

-_______-

YLLS

basketball match

advertising for pocarti drink

english lessons

far right;YU my buddy for a day wrote on my paper;

what would you do if you had an extra hr?

ans;spend time with my boyfriendsssssss.

reflections every night......

in our messy messy room.

3rd frm the right;my bunk,the tidiest!;)

on the flight back home,while godeh-godehing the remote control i accidentally press the call steward button.so when he came and ''yes may i help you?''.i was like HUH?.really tak sengaje press okay .not as if he was ehm cute or anything.

holding on to a packet of peanuts while godehing is a baad idea.realising the peanuts disappearing way too fast,i realised it was all under my seat.WOOPS.

and nad,thanks alot for picking up my remote after it dropped more than 5 times.hehh.

im sorry i couldnt upload all the pictures cos there were 700 not 300 of em.To those who wants their pictures,email me but i cant promised ill send every one of them.;)

Thanks for everything you two<3.>

2008-11-19T22:10:00.004+08:00

Today marked the last daay of the whole hk trip.and I miss MING-GOR already!the first few days was a test to the body system with temperatures dipping to 13 deg when the cold wind blows plus the 5 days of lessons in TLLF was kinda laid back-the own time own pace kind.We met all sorts of people and we went through all sorts of experience ;lessons,handball training,hardcore shopping,mentel-ing,cooking,the hongkong accent! and most of memorable,the making of new friends.This time,i got a lot closer to ms j,mas,nad and fitz and we all showed a side of us that we dnt usually potray in school.Niza,ur included here,hehh.After 9 days i kinda miss the cramping of 12 girls in a room,the cooking with ~~tak kasi balik since secondary school nye~~ mess tin plus the time limit of having hot water.OH and refelection every night where ill hide my long baju butterfly under the hoody.i know,damn cool.;)

and the list of ''i miss..'' goes on and on and on.

but i could have just regretted going to this trip and not see the the fun side of it if not for all the ones mentioned above.
thanks all and TLLF AND YLLS,you guys really made our stay here an unforgettable one.
there,there, dnt go crying while barbequeing fish shall we?
MAS and NAD,bila outing?

next entry pictures yo!selected from 300 over pics.
i swear its gonna take a loong time.
take care everyone!

2008-11-10T10:29:00.002+08:00

30 minutes till we take off.and i won the biggest,heaviest luggage eveeer.sungguh memalukan.at 21.6 kg summre.gosh.they said im going for a pilgrimage.hoho.nenek,tuk and fam sent me off and i can wait to empty half of my luggage.i miss the usual people alr.Hope i get to give you guys a surprise call.;).
take care everyone and enjoy the holidays,millennians;))

2008-11-09T22:41:00.003+08:00

Thanks for the well wishes,for the intentions of sending me off tomorrow.But its way too early so please dont menyusahkan diri.If it was 8 at night ill make sure you all send me all the way to the gate.haha.diyanah sungguh tak tahu malu.we'll catch up soon okay?babes,22 november.
probably im the only one bringg beras and roti and bantal ~~busuk~~ hidden in my luggage ah.and not forgetting batman.HAHA.if you know my grandmother,you know what that means.
Take care everyone,till the 19th;)

2008-11-09T17:35:00.007+08:00

8 NOVEMBER 2008

Morning:Mustafa Centre + breakfast at Geylang.

THEY had retail therapy again.pfffft.

Nows the trend to ask for a birthday present before your birthday is due.

Nurul had hers a months back when her birthdays is in 5 months.

Afiq had his yesterday when his birthday is in 2 months time.

TSK.spoilt people.

GEYLANG;

.( two makciks wearing same tudung,same colour baju kurung)

ayah;eh tengok tu!TWINS!TWINS TUEK.

i sweaaar i was amused yet embarassed.thanks ah yah.

AFTERNOON;Gathering at Wak piks place.

Pictures have yet to grab.

NIGHT;Anuar zains concert.

He didnt move around the stage but instead rooted himself in the middle.

When the audience ask him for lagu kain pelikat,he actually sang the song impromtu when that wasnt in his song list.and when one of them screamed GEREK!

he actually gelek onstage then ''gerek tu aper?'.

sungguh charming can cair, can!

but the highlight of the night was when i stepped out of the concert hall,BAAM!

i saw.......

keep screaming girls!SUPEEEER HOT can?!what more with his clean shaven everything!

ME;ma!ma! jangan pegi dulu! nak tengok taufik dulu!omgomg!hot kan?i want to faint mother,i want to faint!

Mother;(attempted to knock my head)

Beside her,the makcik was laughing at me.excuuuse me makcik,awak pun tunggu kat tepi nak tengok dier jugak eh please.jaaaaangan nak bedek.(sambung pls;))

HE didnt decline any photo offers but i couldnt bear to wrestle the numerous makciks in their all glittery outfits.see on his right?makcik NO 1 and on his left makcik no 2 and behind him all the other 342533 makciks all seletting,trying to get a picture.TSK!TSK!Beware of them okay people.DO NOT be fooled by their harmless looking tudung and makcik2 smile and all.I admit,i wanted to wait patiently to take a picture with him but first,i didnt wanna hurt these makciks,2nd i didnt want to be in another fans picture,3rd,i dint wanna make you all jealous.see how nice of me?when coincidentally we were wearing the same colour,OH taufik!theres always a next time.=).i sound like a sick chicken.

now,i have yet to finish packing for tomorrows trip.gahhs.whats new lah eh diyanah?do pray for my safety.thanks;)

2008-11-09T17:05:00.015+08:00

SLE CAMP.5-7 NOVEMBER 2008.

yes,i was this excited okay.baju butterfly and all.

all hail mr complain king.seee his expression.;)

dinner time.for the record,the food is waaay better than canteens food.

4 am,pulau ubin.
nap timeeee!

post titanic raft.

''amazing race''.NOT.

the bumpboat.

how cute.they were rehersing for THIS IS ME-demi lovato for our camp fire item.

how could anyone not watch camp rock?

k fine.not everyone is as kental as me.

Camp ended with 30 mosquito bites on my body.not exaggerating.apparently i was the only one among them to wear everything long ah and yet i was the only one with that many bites.lucky me.T_T.

Dinner-ed at vivo city.and some retail therapy.

STEPPING INTO TOPMAN.

ayah; recession!recession! cannot buy anything ah!

in the end ,he and afiq came out with 3 shirts.-__-.

next entry;8 november!

2008-11-02T22:46:00.009+08:00

im having a panic attack with huge monsterous butterfles flying, soaring in my flat tummy.im exaggerating lah(not abt the flat tummy though.HAHA.).but really i have no idea why im panicking all of a sudden.

maybe this is proof of unneeded paranoiaaaaaa.

and saiful,soo not helping okay.no one dances while on the other line.
yep,no one.

2008-11-02T20:12:00.008+08:00

Even though i walked out empty-handed(without a pair of levi's jeans in hand),i was contented.He brought me through the shops,patiently browsing through the different,colour,sizes,types and most importantly,prices ,without any complain.He was the one who suggested which shops i might be interested to go in and have a look,even though knowing that with my cerewetness and fickle mind i wouldnt buy anything without lots of hegeh-ing.
Unfortunately for him,He is my Dad;)

Thank you,ayah!

2008-11-01T23:25:00.002+08:00

For now,i feel like a detective/spy/mission impossible etc etc, impatient to know the outcome.
we shall wait ~~(anxiously and impatiently)~~ and see.

2008-11-01T14:55:00.009+08:00

let the true colours show and i know i could still count on them.

thanks for celebrating my day,i love you.

2008-10-30T22:56:00.005+08:00

BIRTHDAAAY;
the morning started with mummy calling at 630 before im otw out to do malay alevels.
and the night before was busy planning with fathin hanani;)
heres the loong list of people i'd like to thank for all the birthday wishes.
its in order with shirin izzati and hairil being only a min diff frm each other.

shirin
hairil
izzati
mahsuri
syafiqah
syidah
mastura
nurul
habibah
faezah
sakinah
suaidah
googan
faj
zara
dian
ain
liyana
vithya
nazreen
cheelin
raehana
norfi
saiful
dayah
shaiha
haikal
mak athin

after 12;
adib
hafiz
waz
faris
niza

friday;
faezah
sean
fina
cik din
maksu

im sorry if i missed anyone out.
and thank you very much for the wishes and the presents.
and the 2 mini celebrations i had;)
<3.

2008-10-30T22:13:00.007+08:00

On this very day i was born,fortunately.(ya think?)
ive grown to a good(yes,good not fat okay) 17 years old maybe not as mature i can be nor wiserr nor ____(insert other adj) but one things for sure i couldnt have done without the guidance of Allah and my parents.Dear god,thank you for letting me have this easy(whats a few of mums nagging and scolding and lack of freedom?) life thus far.For letting me have the bestest (despite the lack of whatnots) parents that i could ever hope for,for they give me guidance every single day and keep me in their prayers without fail.I could always ask for more nonsense and wants but im confident you wont give me more than what i need.Not forgetting for letting me have chaotic siblings to come home to everyday.For the loved ones thats too many to mention be it in school (always ensuring i pull my socks up and mug my ass off-last min) or the ones i made since primary school that are still dear to me till this very day.

On this very day,i really pray and hope you'd keep all of them safe and very very close to my heart for i wont be this sane or at least this sensible without all of them.
Thank you Allah for everything.

2008-10-28T23:34:00.003+08:00

its one to test someones patience,

but its another to really go a step too far to lose his/her

respect.

for that minimal respect i had left (for you),

it was gone at the stroke of ten.

2008-10-28T21:53:00.015+08:00

through rain or shine,we made it happen.

thanks girls for the presence.;)

2008-10-26T23:24:00.002+08:00

i went to IMM then changi airport with my baju kurung!dnt get me wrng.im not ashame for weariing my traditional costume or what.but i felt soo out of place kay.and the stares?foyoooh.i can forethink that all thats running through their minds were ''raya dahbes lerr".*DUSHH*.
still,with or without costume i had a joy doing what i do best-sponge my parents pocket dry .and one scooop of sticky chewy choco ?highlight of the boring giler chelsea liverpool ongoing match.

2008-10-26T23:22:00.002+08:00

he called her in the middle of the night.

without saying the norm hello or hi.

instead it started with ''f is for frie...''.

if ur reading this,that really really made my ~~night~~ day;)

2008-10-25T17:35:00.005+08:00

DEEPAVALI CELEBRATION.

COME CELEBRATE WITH ~~ME!~~ SIVA's FAMILY!
This invitaion extends to all ex-AI students who's a friend of sivas lah.duhh.
Lets indulge in indian food especially cooked by sivas mom and basked in the indian atmosphere since sivalah satu-satunya kawan indian kitorang kan.
Inform and remind the rest okay?

I CANT WAIT TO MEET YOU ALL ON MONDAY!

HAPPY DEEPAVALI!

2008-10-25T16:54:00.003+08:00

yesterday,having your cousin in the same school charging straight at you with loud shout of ''diyaaanaaah!!'' and then with arms flagging out wide,giving you the tightest hug ,brings about a surge of euphoria and many stares from other students.they probably think we,re two long lost souls finally happy to meet or smthg.but who cares eh sakinah?

celebration with the bestfriend and the cousin with......

HIGH SCHOOOL MUSICAL 3!

i swear i swear aft another song ends,5 mins later another one starts and zac efron couldnt look more buffier.*AHHH HOTNESS*

aand sesungguhnya we were the oldest in the theater amidst the maaaaany kiddos.When the movie ended,we were the laast few to got out not before covering our faces while the rest stroll out.the hiding didnt stop there though .all the while out of the theater we were like''eh best eh cerite tadi''''alaaa cerite yang 007 tu''.padahal padahal eh korang?

yet another awwwsome! outing.
so to all the bacins,whens sleepover?

2008-10-21T21:33:00.006+08:00

uncertainty.

report book on friday,that means another 2 plus days to endure all this mixed feelings of anxiety uncertainty.reflection,no a reality check is better.we realised then Alevels is no mean feat.scraping through is not good enough.but somehow thats what all of us are just aiming for now;promotion.thats said,ive not bawled my eyes out crying ending with puffy
cheeks and whatnot.not because im proud of my results,trust me its not even near that ah.but im just very very grateful i got to scrape my papers.though this is not the same for overall,yes?
a whole new meaning to teachers,they make you have sleepless nights and anxiety attacks just to play this guessing game for a few mre days.baaahs.

uncertainty.

a friend i have.to those who knows im referring to,i know you know so shhhh.firstly,it anoyying enough when you demoralise yourself.you know youre not untalented.no one is born that way.its just that living in denial does not help okay.seeing you pulling a facade is ironic enough.we know ur hurt,dissappointed yet u still chose to be adamant looking strong and all.maybe you dnt want
us to worry but what are friends for then?and when you,re in need of help you dont show it,we cant help you.and then the cycle of''no one cares for me,im untalented,stupid and lazy''.its infuriating really.when we,re trying hard to make you at least feel the teeny bit hopeful yet ur being yourself down.when u cant beat em,join em.and i say all the best,friend.i reaaalllly hope youll search deep down inside and then you might realise there are people who do care for you.please wake up and realise,we might part sooner than you think.learn to love yourself cos we believe in you.

uncertainty.

I do not know where this stands.theres more than what the status meets the eye.i dont understnad why you have to keep some stuffs from me.i cant help but review our relationship.am i that untrustworthy enough to be told that?i dont know where ive gone wrong or isit just that we are drifting apart.yes,we.be it just the two of us maybe everyone.im tired of being the one doing all the calling and the asking about all the happenings.maybe its time ill let you have a stand in these relationships,see how far you want it to go.or isit just me hoping itll last a loong time.maybe it was easy in the past but with everyone expecting someone to do it.it get exhausting.so maybe its time to reflect and think when have you ever be the first one to sms or give a call to someone close or once close to or cousin etc?.be it just to ask whats been happening or how its been going?if a call is too long to make id say a 5cent 2 seconds text will do.it wont hurt to be the one making the first move,letting the other party know you still do care.isit too late to salvage the friendship?id say its never too late to start now.

this post is long and draggy and emo-y enough for all the ongoing drama.
till friday,
take care everyone.

2008-10-18T07:43:00.002+08:00

GEP selection test.

means im 100 bucks richer and very veeery afraid of the teaching world.
from teacher teacher can i bring tissue in? to teacher teacher one boy never wash his hand after
going to the toilet.
and i get the heebe geebees while collecting their exam scripts thinkg budak bertuah mane lah tk cuci tangan.
all they do is complain complain complain.
eh?how come its sounds familiar ah.
then again cant blame them lah having to sit for 4 papers all which tests them on their knowledge when im sure all they wanna do is play with the latest tamagotchi or psp.tsk.

here are some snippets.
-students get all nervouse till they have wedgy hence the butt digging the whole exam
-or they bite all their nails possible during the whole 1hr plus exam
-pri 3 students love torturing their teachers
by,letting me throw their used tissues or their pencil shavings.
-what?didnt they hear of 2B mechanical pencil?
-they looove going to the loo so much.
-and i find joy in saying NO.
-boys love showing their skinny short legs.seluar katok and all while bersila-ing on the chair.
-and whats a class without one difficult pupil?
jerrald chua,u suck my blood for the 2 whole days and ill forever remember you for the first student who made me scream.
the boy who played with money aeroplanes making all the *onsert aeroplane noise* and wetting your OAS paper.sesungguhnya aku tak berpuasa.

but at the end of the day seeing them soo happy being able to go home makes it all worthwhile.

Thank you room 1 for making this temporary invigilating worth blogging and like one of you who said see you when...i dont know when;)

PS,thnks to amirah,ain,farah too for layaning my crap this 2 days
and the two asisstants vincent and haidar for keeping a tab on that jerrald.

teaching,here i come!insyaALLAH.

2008-10-08T14:37:00.002+08:00

AYAH;dier dah boleh balik sendiri lah primary 4
ME;eh mane boleh kesian dier!
AYAH;dulu org sumer dah balik sendiri lagi dulu tak naik bus.
ME;TU DULU!dulu polis pakai seluar pendek!
AYAH;ah dulu tak pakai seluardalam pon!sebab tk mampu!

nonsensical moments when ur not in school or at work.but at home.

2008-10-08T11:13:00.001+08:00

a little bit longer and ill be fine.

how much longer?
how much more excuses and postponed meet ups?
you tell me.

2008-10-08T09:29:00.002+08:00

Like a letter left unread.
Apologies are often open ended,
but this was better left unsaid.

another day another drama.
maybe this time you'd leave my loved ones alone.
but we all know thats not going to happen.

2008-10-03T23:18:00.002+08:00

boredom strikes.

i so wish im out with my babes.
whom ive looong to hear from.
too much to ask for i guess.
just a squeak please then?

as they say only true friendships will stand the test of time.

2008-10-03T20:53:00.003+08:00

TGIF.

THE worst ever tgif.
why?
becauuuuse 2 MAJOR MAHA MAJOR papers to die for.
like really.
yes i wonder what ive been doing in class or outside class.
lets just wait for the outcome shall we?

im having time out now.
time out from jalaning raya.
what jalan raya when so far ive been to only 2 houses??
that explains the lack of moolahs haha but what are sisters for right?

but seriously this year i can safely say NO ONE HAS THE MOOD YO.
with promos AND NO HOLIDAYS what raya you tell me?

so today was a huge relief with two maha majors over and done.
so its partaaaay!
hah.i wish eh.
last paper millenians!you go people!

so tmrw airport?
whos up for a rolling good time with accounts and pillows at the viewing hall?
and ice cream at swensens?
aah speaking of which the cup has shrunk.
no more 2 laarge scoops of chewy choco.
now its two squeezed scoops in a small cup with many grumbles.
haiyah diyanah grumble grumble as if you pay lidat.tsk.

with only a month away from school shit heres what ill be looking forward to!

OCT 24- HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3(musicals are soo cute!including zac efron)
OCT 30-~~MALAY ALEVELS~~ BIRTHDAY!
NOV 3-5-SLE camp?
NOV 8-Anuar zain concert.cekgoo,screaam!
NOV 10-hongkong?

and the most important date!Oct 17!promo results aaaaaah!
kay i think this post is long enough and a shoutout to saiful.
CHEER UP okay?and yes maaf zahir batin.
there ive said it;)

2008-10-01T00:03:00.004+08:00

im trying my very veeeeeery best.

to picture Taufik without his goatee while trying to enjoy that melodious voice of his.
standing next to Hadi,he was more taller,handsome-r,machoer,melodious-err.
and more aaaaaaaaah!

im suppose to be studying geog which i bet thats what everyone is doing now right norfi?
diyanah,diyanah.tsk!

2008-09-29T23:17:00.005+08:00

a day left till syawal.
i know some kiddos who are counting down the days till raya.

well if you are too,join the cluuuuub yo!
yes,dont try and deny.
smoehow i believe theres that teeny weeny reason we all are looking forward to raya.
be it the moolahs ,the boyfriend,or in my case,hellooo mango madness!
how i missed it this whole month!

still reflecting this ramadhan,i cant say it has been better than the last.
whatmore with promos and sickness in the past 2 weeks with the holy book barely touch.
excuse mecuses eh diyanah?
its too late to regret now i suppose.
but i can say goodbye to the ustaz who reads long and draggily and the makcik who keeps burping in every terawih!omg.diyanah is such a ____.
all i can hope for is to meet the next ramadhan.insyaALLAH.
with HIS help too,ADLI will get well soon.;)

oh and if youve been following up with the F1 races,i soo didnt believe that could ever happen!
i guess thats all been written down i guess.
who would have guess felipe massa would go 13?well i didnt.
and lewis hamilton 3rd?i didnt either.
whoever wins still,didnt affect me one bit.
cos firstly,i dont see how any massa hamilton alonso on the circuit would have benefit me one bit. or benefit those living in the town area.
secondly,the aftermath of the F1s have been anoyying me.

everyday now since the friday i have to put up with vehicles driving along the expressway with loud engine sounds.like freaing loud belonging usually to ahbeng cars.tolong eh stop it.dah kereta ahbeng to buat hal lah kereta ahbeng feeling2 konon F1.grrr.buat geraam je orang.

last 3 H2 papers to ~~die~~chiong for
for i know i screw chem baadly today.HELLO u grade.
i should just slap myself silly la.bag check?kasut check?baju raya check?oh!poket besar check?jangan luper rehearse dialog maaf kat mak!(mak im kidding.heh)
ohno!so many things,so little time!

selamt menyambut aidilfitri!
inginku mohon maaf sekiranya terlepas kata terkasar bahasa
dalam percakapan harian atau dalam senda gurauan.
halakan makanan dan minuman atau cubitan bekalan eh korang?

selamaaaat *DENG* haaaaaari *pause* rayaaaaa!
*te ne net tet tet tet te ne net*

2008-09-22T19:45:00.004+08:00

i totally agree with sakinah.

we need help.like a professional doctor or not.maybe all we need is who can predict the future no i take that that back.maybe predict when our periods going to come or when its going to end.better yet how much it will come.but then its like challenging God's will and anticipating God's gift and i know we should just wait patiently but if we know beforehand it will soo save us much paranoiaaaaa and lots of drama.am i right girls?i shall just wait ~~anxiously~~ patiently ery confusing time to end.Dear god,please hear me out at let the sign be clear.With only a few days away i dont want to let this opportunity go to waste and like sakinah mentioned this might be the last Ramadhan though dengan kehendakMU kami dipanjangkan umur dan dikurniakan kesihatan.may i add scrape my ass through promos?AMIN.

Ayah(at the dining table);eh korang semuer dah boleh bayar zakat sendiri eh.
Me(at the computer table):i thought we wakilkan you?
Ayah;Tak cakap pon wakilkan.mane ader cakap.
Me;kaykay,Saya,Nur Diyanah Bte Samani wakilkan bapak sayer(cakap mesti pekat giler) untuk membayar aper yang patut.HAHA.
Ayah;I TAK TERIMA!

and adik bought a cake for mum.guess what i bought?nothing.well not yet ah.
but im planning to get here tickets!aaaaah tickets to ANUAR ZAIN concert know!
the problem is..whos gonna sponsor mine?*slaps forehead*
its all in the planning though.hear that ayah?plaaanning.

lets start mugging fellow schoolmates.
becaaaaaaause we,re going shopping tomorrow!so must cover up tonight okay?
take care and HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOTHER!

2008-09-20T20:42:00.004+08:00

i am worried sick.

promos starts officially....ON MONDAY!!!

*starts hyperventilating*

geepee and malay both on same day.still this isnt so bad seeing theres the 3rd of September.
THE day we,re going to freeze under the air con or maybe just maybe freeze under the pressure of sitting for not 1 but 2 h2 subjects.by hook or by crook these are two subjects ill be banking on to get myself promoted.oh greaaaaat.i can just imagine heating up the chair while racking my brains to find the right answers to the tedious questions for 3 whole hours.dang.no wait.6 hours to be exact since theres one in the morning and one in the afternoon.so then i ask myself again,why am i here in the first place?gaahs.

oh wells,whining and complaing is not getting me anywhere near preparing myself for the promos.

oh and guess what?
miss reds started and stopped barely less than an hour.
this is soo worrying seeing that im already 2 weeks late and not even a week of experiencing gods gift.inilah manusia.when it comes we complain of pain ,of tembusing and whatnot.but when it doesnt we worry whats wrong with our body.

i can just imagine a nyonya saying haiyah lu olang manyak susah lorr.

2008-09-19T21:29:00.002+08:00

mc cafe-ing now with haz twins,jee,gazali and nurlin.
and after almost a week now,i got my ice creaam with nuts.sedap or whaat?
todays buker wasnt complete though without athin!
boooooooo.

miss reds just had to come at 6.
boooooooooo.

and hairil and norfi?
thnks soo much for the white envelopes.
though i dnt know what its for now*scratch heads*

last 10 days tilll raya people.
dont waste this golden opportunity okay?
take care and god bless.

2008-09-18T11:56:00.002+08:00

some things are better off not said.
but others are better written than said.

a letter in my locker with a pebble with my initial.
definitely a surprise.
with just my name written on the envelope and a fullstop.
but it proved otherwise.

in the contents,it read many beautiful feelings and explanations.
but most importantly,it made me realise in what i thought i lost,i found a better bstfd.
i love you.

2008-09-14T00:17:00.003+08:00

making our way to the airport just to satisfy my ice-cream craving.
how was it?
it ended up with vomit on the seats.
hysterically gross.

i realised a scoop of that sinful indulgence is just enough to keep me going.

2008-09-12T22:09:00.002+08:00

yes,tell it like it is sista.

i dont understand actually.its reaally hard to comprehend how people can just blow hot and cold like in a split second.helllloooo.what is wrong with you?firstly if we dont disturb your life by i dont know deprive you of your sleep or steal your watevers.no right?tsk.then you seriously has got issues.deciding to just not talk or suddenly respond when people talk to you is very scary okay.freakingly scary.and people have to take your crap for it.in this case im nt the victim heree,my cousin is.im so sorry cousin for having to take all this crap.thanks for tahaning all this shit and nonsense.

and like yesterday,i woke at at aljunied only to sleep again thinking alaa masih lamer lagi.tup tup bangun dah at tanah merah.*slaps forehead*.only today sakinah was there to woke me up know if noooot.

i wish promos would end soon
i wish raya wouldnt be here soon cos promos would be too soon.
but for it to end it must come soon aye?
contradicting lah diyanaaaah.

holding on to that flicker of hope before its too late.
*sighs*

i miss my besties.
like alot.
take care everyone.

2008-09-11T21:37:00.003+08:00

why me?

sounds familiar?i had many embarassing moments this past few months,
some are keep veryveeeery close to my heart while some are being shared with seniors and sme ehm guy which omgaaaaawd makes me wanna hide under my mums baju butterfly can?

then again,this little little things that make each day different, that makes me enjoy be it embarassing or not spending the day with friends in class or backstage with the backstage geng eh?i swear that redundant story sharing was the most embarassing ive ever faced.read this hairil ,eveeer faced.but ive got to admit hairil has this sickuning waay of making everything sounds funny!

oh highlight of the day!we opened the handicapped toilet and then peering on the floor there was this blue cloth.peeering neare and neaaarer,jengjengjeng!it was a pair of blue briefs!apelagi?we burst out laughing la.can you imagine if any of us touched it?haiayh still not as bad as BCH right not?whats bch?ada aah;)

got this news a few minutes ago nurul said i wasnt selected for the interview.my first reaction was really?then she said no.woah thanks ah nurul! now im reaally in denial cos priyas not going with me;(.now i truly regret introducing this trip to _____!you know i know lah eh.

last day of the week tomorrow.
means a week less to promos.
syabas diyanah.
lets screw our way through promos people.gahhs.

kay im dne.

2008-09-10T22:13:00.002+08:00

tonsils was annoyying me the whole day.
the fact that i didnt go to school was bored me at hme.
i cant possibly do pe without any valid reason can i?
with MR ROSLANS REGIME LIDDAT,no i cant.
tsk.its a miracle we didnt diee of dehydration.(this part of course exaggerating lah eh)

ive got many things due,gifts and hw and promos revision!
gaaaah,its up to my swollen tonsils alr.
yes,that much.
so many things,so little time.

im back to swallowing antibiotics urgh gross and diluted cold syrup.
and i wonder when ill be able to say i can swallow pills doctor!

its alr one week of puasa,that fast!
take care everyone;)
ps;thanks hairil and norfi!Hopefully ill be back(,~~googans~~ arnold swaghgneger's faave line) by tomorrow!

2008-09-04T22:48:00.010+08:00

i missed you.like a hell loads.

yes,diyanah is soo cheesy and corny and whatnot.
but no,im not a lesbian.

today like after sooo long(kay actually like 6days),i got to see norfi again.
ive got manymany stories to tell but somehow my mind was blank
and for that brief moment i dnt think it could have finished my stories.

i told hairil this before,and ill say it again here.
i reaaally wish i was back in pae.
things have change but i know she has my back and ill let her know i'll have hers.
*sings to hannah montanahs song*

norfidiana,i missed you.

todays poa was very productive i must say.really i realized i have alot to cover before im prepared for promos.and SAIFUL,u suck like big time!so much for your ''clubbing'', we were more urgh cos you actually said you were coming.we want to help you out but theres only so much we could all do.maybe not we all lah but hairil can do to help you out

i know someones veeery elated cos she has a movie date!4bia know!
no brainer what kinda show right.aaaah i wouldnt dare watch
but i know someone will!

& two very important people are celebrating their birthdays tomorrow aaand
tomorrowtomorrrow!
ill be at ramadhan youth challenge camp so all electronic devices are taken away till sunday.
baaaahs i dunnoe how i'd lived but with shirin and syidah around,it'll be fun yes?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ,

NORFI & NURUL!

school life wouldnt ever be the same without both of you. norfi, whos been through thick and thin (and gossips!) with me since pae.only you know me best among the rest,inside and out. and i couldnt have survived through lessons without motivation and support from nurul.i love you two!

till next week everyone,

slamat menjalani ibadah puasa;)

2008-08-30T23:35:00.002+08:00

this afternoon,i watched sweets for my sweets the re run,theone with Suhaimi Yusoff.
next babe outing after bulan puasa,ISLAND CREAMERY.
With so many flavours ice creamt o choose frm with a small prics,what more can you ask for??
aaaaaaaah i have to tahan this craving for like what?
ONE MONTH?!
greaaaat.
=S

2008-08-30T19:38:00.002+08:00

DRAAAAMA.

If you know me that well,whats new you'd say.
but reallly this time no joke.
This past week is officially the worst ive ever experienced.

firstly,
i missed the drama that was happening at my very own carpark.
The MR LEE who mama even smiled and asked 'new case again ah',
turned out to be MR LEE WHO WAS THE SUSPECT.
sunnguh tidak disangka.

then the next day,
i was awaay at grndmas to missed...
AYAHS car got scratched.
he got pissed since its nt even half a years old.
still,my rides arent affected at all..heh.

in school on a thursday evening.
with the suspense still lingering in the prayer room,
how not to be cautious knowing theres not one but freaking 2 cockroaches hiding somewhere in some deeep corner?
anyways if you,re reading this THANKS SUHAIMI for actually checking for us the room that night.

Anywayys,the two cockroaches just haaaaad to make their presence known when we,re about to pray.ape lagi?
terpekik terlolong behind the backstage,ho ho HAIRILS FACE?CLASSIC MAN.
hhaahah.oh ya THANKS FATHi ,you brave soul kiling the two pests away.

and the biggest DRAMA yesterday,
a last minute decisiont o watch wall.e with 3 babes.
when the cinema girl gave me the tix,
i thought skali i lost my wallet with the tixs inside.thinking ill start crying and all.
AND IT REALLY CAME TRUE!

firstly i really thought im just paranoid,as usual,
only difference it really was gone!
the girls wasnt angry i lost it
reality didnt sink in still only after i called hairiil
tears started welling up and we went to the cinema to see if anyone went to use the tix.
well,noone had and the attendent let us in even when we didnt have the tix.
THANKS AUNTIE!

show was really cute though we were all chilled to the bones since we didnt brought anything along and i even slept sometime in the show.
oh oh and i and izza met zaki!
A childhood friend of mine and....
hoho you know i know eh izza?
Thanks babes for going through all with me im so sorry for losing the ticekts and SHIRIN! thanks for the surprise donuts in my shoe bag.that was really unexpected!
Lastly hairil for comforting me throughout on the phone no thanks for the repeated dnt cry lah diyanah *giggles* dnt cry *giggles*.TSK.
;D

sleptover neneks hse aagain
and today,i took my first virgin step to the neighbourhood police post.
yes,tehres a first time for everything,includign losing my ic.
the leaast you could do was give back my ic and ezlink which thankfully was -40 cents.
lesson learnt so im sure no branded stuff for me for a while eh ma?
maybe until raya i hope.
pictures from teachers day next entry.

till then selamat berpuasa to all muslims.
may god bless us this special month.
amin.

2008-08-23T23:13:00.003+08:00

did you catch your breath
when i look at you?
Did you norfi?=D

somehow the backstage geng has just grown bigger.
with nissa joining last friday.
alhamdulillah.
hopefully its for the right reasons eh lila?
hehehe.

i learnt a huge secret days ago.it made me think that nothing really is impossible if God wants it to.really,i was overwhelmed with amazement.here is this guy,not having the privilage to see
the world like you and i do.but there he is doing his a duty as a muslim.how can i now be ashamed?For all this while i am complaining that lifes unfair or that at times lifes too difficult for me to handle, i forgot there are others that have it more worse than i do.im not saying im not going to complain or ehm whine anymore but onwards im going to try to be more thoughtful of others and be more grateful for the little little things that i do have that ive always take it for granted.To that dear friend of mine,thank you for showing me a human
spirit that never fails to inspire others and that little fire in you to always keep going.Ya Allah,tabahkannya sekelurga untuk melalui dugaan ini.Amin.

2008-08-19T20:52:00.002+08:00

today was one of the raarest day where we,as in me and norfi,was allowed to stiffle many giggles over nonsensical stuffs,over our inside joke without getting caught by ms jee.miracle?yes.
good to say that we finally found a balance in having fun and yet making the lesson productive.

and yes gp sucks big time.
somehow i miss,okay,prefer not miss,.emmmanuel.
still,kenneth(kenneth kawan kau per?) is sooo much better than josh.
minus his ehm.oh nevermind.

my dear cousin , sakinah.oh so sick.GET WELL SOON HONEEY!
eat tubs of ice cream,like really.no chocolate flavour please.

AUGUST BABIES!
NASRI!HAPPPY BIRTHDAY!
you.idiot.dnt knw how to reply msg isit?
throw ur phne far far away sudah luh.

i cant wait for fridaaaaaay!
;D

2008-08-12T20:02:00.002+08:00

the worlds best procrastinator.
should go to me.
if there was even an award ceremony i wnt eventually get around to even plan it.

that aside,
lately,i hate hate haaate the dramas thats been popping up from nowhere.now now cant we just all control our emotional baggage or at leaast consider other's feelings?i was about to slink in the peace and quiet somewhat mentally preparing for the hell of a roller coaster ride in weeks to come prior to promos.bah.who ami kidding.maybe they,re right; the older we get the selfish we become.

heres a toast to a cruel world filled with selfish people.

2008-08-11T19:20:00.003+08:00

target;CAROUSELL.
partners in crime;shirin and geng.waaaah geng seyh shirin!
goal;before 2009
short term goal;one of the buka puasa times.

YAYA-AWWWW JER KITORANG.
ohwells it doesnt hurt to plan and get ready the moolahs.
okay set?go!